losing him was blue like id never known

never planned that one day i'd be losing you, never thought about it either...
we were fine in the back then, we were fine, we were fine, we had nothing matters that could cause this thing happened, called 'breaking up' but what happens now? i don't know...
we were insanely in love with each other, we loved each other so much, we missed each other everytime. we would tell each other's secret, we would ask about how our day was, we would tell everything that we usually didn't tell other people. but we can't do that now, we can't tell 'i miss you' to each other anymore, we can't tell 'i love you' to each other anymore, we can't tell anything to each other anymore, we can't... and it's all because of me, because of my pride, my ego, my needs and my selfish ways... i still can't find out why the hell did i do that, letting someone that truly loved me go. i was so stupid in the back then, i pushed you away when i only meant to bring you closer in the wrong way. i really am sorry. how many times do i have to apologize to you so you can forgive me? please forgive me:(
and by the way i loved you once, i love you still, always have and always will...